How Sweet It Must Be...

my great quest in life, no my obsession, what keeps me awake at night. the search for the perfect pouffy pillow. growing up, i had this super-fantastic pillow that my mother assigned to my bed. like a cloud, it was, sleeping on it. for all the sleepless nights i went through, haunted by yet another episode of 'quincy' i had been forbidden to watch, i enjoyed many a night of floating in a wonderful dreamworld.

can it be so difficult to find that perfect pillow? instead i get things like, firm, soft,back-sleeper, side-sleeper, feather, memory foam. who understands all of that? what about pouffy, super-pouffy, will-never-flatten, feels-like-your-head-is-on-a-cloud? instead, i have bought perhaps 12 pillows in the last 4 years, all come with promises of heaven and end up in insomniac hell. sometimes i get lucky and the pillow is good for a week or two then everything falls flat. literally.then i spend the night punching the damn thing, trying to get air and miracles into the pillow. i wake up with pain in my neck, head and mostly in my heart.

i just want to sleep with my head on a cloud. is that asking for too much?